Heathcliff and me - two demented people

I think it would be easier to go on if I had any sense of Glenn being still around - you know how you'll hear people say that, that they feel the departed are still with them in some way. I haven't felt that for even a second of the past year. I said to Dr K this week that I'd like nothing better than to have Glenn return in any form - he pointed out that people's experiences of that weren't always very pleasant, but I said I wouldn't care. And I wouldn't care. I couldn't be afraid of him, in any manifestation. I don't even want to surrender his ashes, because it's him.